“I’m going to smoke a joint and watch Harry Potter movies and try to forget.”

Existential Crisis Overload – 36 (Brooklyn)

I’ll be blatantly honest:

I’m losing hope fast and consequently, I’m becoming dangerously depressed. I’m a smart girl though, so instead of taking some impulsive action, I’m analyzing. I hate analyzing…talk about adding unnecessary frustration to the mix!

The system sucks but when so many people believe in the system…believe in it as the only possible system and all change must happen within it…how do you fight it?

How do you fight when you’re not a fighter?

I have no interest in the system. None. But I have no idea how to live outside of it…coming from a family of top notch assimilators, it’s all I know how to do and yet it’s killing me. I hate being fake.

All I want is to be happy. To live in and contribute to a happy society. A balanced society.
One without pigeons would be awesome…

…I’m going to smoke a joint and watch Harry Potter movies and try to forget that I actually wrote this and posted it…life is seriously starting to suck though.