“I’ve begun to realize how obnoxious a drunk person can really be.”

question for the bar tenders/bar goers of nyc (ny)

so my dearest of drinking partners recently developed our weekly binge drinking sessions in to full blown alcoholism. he has been drinking pretty much every day of the week recently and as a result has been placed into recovery, so i can’t rely on him for being my go to guy when i need a boozing partner.as a result i’ve been going to bars by myself lately and i have to say the experience is…different. i still end up leaving the places shit faced drunk, but without having my friend with me i’ve begun to realize how obnoxious a drunk person can really be, especially considering that most of the people i see at the bar are no where near as drunk as i am. many nights i will socialize but i can kind of tell most people i talk to just want to cut the conversation short as fast as possible because they see how plastered i am.

bartenders are a bit more forgiving and tend to initiate convo with me, but mostly because they’re paid to and/or they’re just trying to gauge whether or not they should cut me off.

and here arises my question…

am i better off being that drunken dude that is somewhat obnoxious but great for a laugh, or that sullen, quiet drunk who goes out of his way to not initiate conversation with anybody, looking somewhat creepy in the process?

the irony of it all? the nights i try to start convo everybody seems to want to cut it short….the nights where i just want to get hammered and stare off into space everybody and their mother starts talking to me.